you can leave your online past behind in a second if you want to but you have to close that door forever not leave it open. what is posted here doesn't matter no one will see it besides a handful of anons. you overestimate the importance because you keep feeding it to your brain. life can be simple easy and beautiful if you allow it. turn the devices off, put one foot in front of the other, talk to the people that want to be there for you if you would allow them, focus on yourself and your hobbies and the rest will fall into place