weird how many people bring up the bpd part without really understanding that that’s what causes a lot of the inconsistencies and seeming contradictions. i suffer from it too and it’s really hard to present any one face when your entire identity and inner world is in flux and constant distress from a million little perceived and self-enforced triggers and mood ruiners that become life ruiners. people either want her to be good and a paladin of art and culture and true humanity or else demonize her for being a harlot who does whatever she can to fuck things up and “let us down”. i’m a master at projecting onto others myself but some of you people can’t even see past your own crowded windscreen of bullshit to even know who you’re really looking at