Anonymous 11/17/2021 (Wed) 05:49:44 No.6459 del
>>6451
So I looked through her tumblr for a while. She was mostly happy go lucky but with some self esteem problems and panic attacks (OCD) for a long time, from the beginning of the blog (2013) onward. Her cousin was her best friend and he killed himself in 2015, when she was either 15 or had just turned 16. She spiraled real hard and started to be unable to eat or sleep and it looks like she struggled with an eating disorder (Im making an assumption) around that time and became very depressed. She got into philosophy around this time and slowly became more withdrawn. Her posts became mostly about childhood memories, not eating, and losing herself in music. I think she either stopped going to school for a while or did some homeschooling or part time school program. I think she became anti psychiatry after her cousin killed himself which makes me wonder some stuff about the circumstances of his death. In later 2016 she started doing better and stopped taking all her medication.

It seems she met her ex toward the end of 2016 when she was still 16 or just turned 17 and she stayed a lot happier around then at least at first. Slowly she became more scared of everything. But she was very in love with him and there were a ton of posts about how much she loved him. She got a lot better again and stayed that way. She isolated herself hardcore from everyone except her boyfriend, idk if that was her choice. They broke up a couple years later but the exact date isnt clear. After processing it but all her past anxiety got replaced with what seems like PTSD, not that I'm a doctor, but she constantly posted about feeling contaminated and how she would compulsively pray (which I know is her OCD but it looks like it was tied to her relationship). She'll never come forward with the full details, and I'm still surprised she made that post about her ex trying to kill her/himself considering she was so tight lipped about everything in the relationship besides some vague posts here and there alluding to neglect. Hard to tell what all went down in that relationship and after. Besides what I think is PTSD she's been doing a lot better ever since they split. She has a support system now.