I have discovered my self comfort mechanism. only in a nonverbal fragment. It revolves around an ingrained obediance to some masonic bullshit. You think the skippy video. Skippy was washing that boy off the blood off of him making him repeat and do a little catachism of obediance. They where in a shower. SKippy podesta whoever was washing a boy off screaming at him. I think instead of skippy my sra dom was named felix or mr peanut. or something else. Not sure.I am not saying that happened to me but all i am saying i discovered the sra ingrained self comfort mechanism and am mentally breaking it shamanically. And with jesus christ.Things might get weired but dammit this is a horror upon mankind. I have to try.