>>1734 >all that drama during my early teen years and became accustomed to not expressing things at all even to myself. I do express things sometimes and even my face reveals like an open book my emotions.
>it may have been a little bit more because it even spilled over into thinks that I liked. I actually hide as well things that I really like. In fact, if they show me a thing I like from the outside.....I tend to avoid it despite liking it. Not saying that I cringe but my praise or admiration doesn´t come up publicly in the street.
>I had time to myself I would just be stressed and unable to just get lost in something small to pleasure myself for fun if that makes any sense it's a wonder I'm not a tumblria isn't it? depends on the case and how you stress yourself over the things. One can get stressed but keep the manners into the topic, not getting it too out of hand. If you get lost onto something different than politics, making the world greener(vegan, climate change and typical correct stuff proper of Facebook) or ratial representations in your favorite shows or entertainment, then you won´t become a tumblrina. Let alone the fact that you didn´t have an account in that site.
>I just became a robot only viewed things in value to objectives. I see things as a medium for other purposes and I show that mentality constantly but being a robot....it´s awful. You don´t think nor you can have the ability to offer anything interesting on personal values. I rejected an old friend (imagine a situation like Amending Fences but without the internal drama, just chill, not seeing us after 6 years or so) because of his superficial view of things and only seeing life as successful by having the materialistic things to have a happy life. His mind however, is devoid and he bored me after 2 hours. I didn´t want to see his cool mobile nor his expensive car but what he can entertain me by himself. Having a viewpoint, something to talk or express....nothing. The funny thing is that he turned on the radio and he despised the song Starman by David Bowie and he liked the noisy electronic dubstep or electropop from his sister playlist (the music that he played wasnt´ even his). No musical taste, no viewpoints on anything political nor deep, nothing remotely interesting that he wanted to talk on a personal level, nor asking anything. Just...doing stuff without thinking about his actions. I felt cold after seeing him like that. There nothing wrong between us in fact, but I honestly feel like using my time on more interesting people even if that requires anonymity and colder interactions.
>that's a little unhealthy but when you have extremely high barriers to true trust and don't feel comfortable telling everything to those you do, such as family. I can see where it could come from. my family is sacred (for the ones I love) and I respect the private information of any user unless that person wants to reveal it and share an experience to take some value. I just don´t want to put them in danger nor have any correlation to mess up their lives with what I do over here. One can call me a faggot, stupid whatever...that´s fine. However, the standards of certain things prevent me to reveal them. I prefer fiction (the comforts of Darkness and Novo´s fic), art (Derpibooru or MLP in general) or music (take Guilty Party or Nico) to express those emotions with different mediums instead and let the interpretations or morals sink by themselves in order to reach something else.
