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I finally think I'm gonna "commit to a path" and then suddenly a new one appears and shits on the previous. No wonder the jews fucking hated Jesus. This is completely different from the one the angels use. No wonder Jesus couldn't convince the Rabbis when he returned after his long absence. This uses a completely different ruleset. And because he fucking died he didn't leave a "tradition" others could use. Just a bunch of sayings others wrote down centuries later... And about things he did and not about how he reached his conclusions.

And everyone is allowed to offend me because this is fucking stupid. Every week I'm finding something that turns around the way I was doing things and the only thing I wanted to do was making my workings more "efficient". One day I think I figured something important out then it turns out it was just a mere piece of the puzzle

Immortal truth yeah... Now I am at the this more immortalish more truthish part. So I go towards it and when I am feeling that I am literally dying of the mortal falsehoods I'm changing directions toward something that doesn't kill me.

Also some years ago some "wizards" tried to "abduct me". I thought they are trying to help me astral project because I was rising up from the bed with the strongest vibrations and I have seen 3 people far above me pulling me out. Then I was like: nice! Let's look at my body from an astral perspective! And my body was just not there... My bed was empty. When I noticed that I got dropped back with an extremely huge force.
Now I can reconnect with them and they are way beyond this realm and I have no idea what or where they are and they are calling my existence a mere "detour" on this planet. They gave me a cloak so far that hides me when I want to sleep from other entities... So yeah I have no idea of my "grand cosmic destiny". But currently I am mad that I cannot even do "simple" party tricks so I am focusing on trying to figure out the details of the path. I am on the level of sometimes I can do anything and sometimes nothing works.