>>1307
And as I was trying to figure out the lessons of Temperance (which is akin to the lessons of tantra). I realized the keypoint of it is "purpose". We need purpose to channel the energies into our life. But what is a purpose? Well it's usually a "mission" or an "activity" we find for our"self" or it gets assigned by some "greater force". Now I realized I don't want to waste time as I "roleplay" some activity which let's me gain the all encompassing energies of "purpose". I want "purpose" be part of my being. So whatever I do it is my purpose and I am not kicked around by some weird force of nature just to complete myself. As I figured out what is purpose and felt all my "cups" being filled (figuring out the details while having the most basic ideas about tarot is fun). A lion appeared and led me to a starry night with aurora borealis and told me that
>You need to become the stars themselves
So with this I jumped to the stars tarot card. My misconception was that there is 1 central point of creation. Which is true but it bleeds into the "other realities" in a different way so you need to become "more than 1 star". All the chakras can be called a "star"
Now I am trying to figure out what I can still destroy in the "tower" because the stars give you a steady energy flow but if your mind goes ashtray because some lingering imperfection it just stops. Which is great and safe but slooooow.

So currently I took a step back and went back to the tower and channeling a large amount of energy to see what it can still break inside me. Because the tower signifies sudden destruction or calamity. But if we can destroy our shit foundations and instantly replace it as it gets destroyed? Well it means awakening. And I still need to awaken further because I slip back into the slumber when I am not paying attention.

>>1292
Which session was that again. I think I skipped that but currently I am gaining lessons from touhous left and right and literally creating a "stage" around me on it's own so it's hard to say I am not a touhou anymore. some weird combination of Reimu Flan Okina Keiki Koishi and if I keep this up Hecate and Yukari... Not to mention all the help Yuuka gives me

>>1297
>saw glimpse of the future a few times there.
>I'll try to swim deeper and see what i find.
Keep going. I am also remembering old dreams and reexperiencing them currently on my path. Things that I am figuring out now were hinted alot before. I was just not able to understand it back then