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I wouldn't mind if you are right as I care for truth and not for dogmatic arguments or personal oppinions, but I have to see it myself. Maybe I will see it after my transformation or we can then discuss it further at least. But for now I can't really care to dive too much into it as I don't want to distract myself too much from the next step to take and the next goal to achieve, the transformation. Kreiter calls it transmutation which happens at crossing of his seventh room. According to him it will happen by itself when you are really advanced, a place will appear in your mind which is calling you. It is a place that for you might as well be true heaven or true home, where you would love to be. When you go there you will transmute, your astral form will merge with your physical body, your physical form being dissolved and you will become an immortal.
Nyght calls it transmogrification and according to him your Twin or Higher Self (which is also your astral body) will merge with you when you are really advanced, dissolving your physical body and merging it with your astral form, making you immortal. Transformation, transmutation, transmogrification, to me this is exactly the same. It all seems to come down to this. I bet it is the same that you meant when you said you will become undead and immortal when your soul and body will merge. There is nothing more that I want than to attain this fantastic, mythical goal. The next step will show itself after this is attained. What would you do if all the signs showed themselves, the Twin being real and the homey heavenly place appearing by itself in your mind all of the sudden, calling you... would you give in to fear and try to explain it away and hide behind a false notion of "reality", or would you drop your last comfort zones, overcome the fear and the doubts and take the leap and turn fantasy into reality? You would probably feel a sort of excitement you have never felt before. I long to feel this feeling, I want the tangible result of knowing that I can make it, and that I made it in the end.