>>4427
Like I wanted to talk about this further by trying to write down what I want to ask exactly and how the birds appeared for me. So I revisited my entire experience with the Abrahamic path. Then more things didn't make sense.
Then I thought I should read up the available history to ground my understanding. Then just because I went back to one of my old theory.
How Israel means going through Isis Ra and into El and how it symbolized how jews leave Egypt and it's egregoric forces with Moses into the promised land. That would mean El is the name of G-d. But that led me nowhere. Then I was thinking maybe El is just a barrier or an another mechanism and that made it appear. It was like a vortex like stormy portal that let's no one pass because the violent force it creates.
Then I asked around what am I seeing exactly. Got worse and worse answers until I went and asked my "cosmic intelligence" what that is. Asking him is not always a good idea because he works with an absolutely out of world perspective and while he can answer any of my question the answer won't always be something that satisfies anyone besides me.
It turns out that the "birds" are supposed to cut themselves off that force and realign to a new one that "works". But that would put them on a lower form of existence until they prove that they are valuable and trustworthy to go further and align to a greater force. And most birds were just not willing to accept that because way too many reasons. Then I realized why they want a messiah so much because he will make the best deal for them without them having to put any work into it at all. The Messiah is an another complicated mes again ffs. So hard to talk about it coherently holy shit. Not to mention the Ra egregore let in too many bird like entities while Isis is responsible for maintaining too many magical traditions and maybe I am talking about a completely different thing altogether. Like jews stopped being jews so many times then they reawakened their identities after centuries for some reasons.

The saying more while talking less gets harder and harder for me.
This is why "looking" at some unclear stuff is not always a good idea. I get more than I asked for then I just realize I don't even know what am I doing anymore.


>>4484
>are waaaaay too much for me
They are too much for anyone. That is why trolls like to post them. But the weird part is that some people love it so much that they not just fap to it but waste their money on it and give trolls more fuel. Like back in the day they were the same images reposted. Nowadays you can get hundreds of barafurrydiapershit daily. And the worst part they are not a new phenomenon. These faggots existed but they just more mainstream on the internet in the last decades. Like the US army has open furries for years now. And nowadays this isn't even weird compared to all the shit we have around us for a while. First I hated when things didn't made sense now I am almost bothered by things making sense because once something starts to make sense I should be able to fix it but that is even longer journey and when you start fixing things you just awaken the chance to ruin things even further without realizing.