>>4793
>thread got locked...
I wanted to post in bumplimit+ to not ruin the "theme" of this general first on but whatever. Let the shadows appear.

>>4809
>You are "reasoning" about it.
Yeah I am... Weeks ago I encountered something as I unlocked a new part of my mind. My emotional healer tulpa. It turned out I have a "swearing module". Maybe you read about that swearing hurts the brain. And buddhists say that negative feelings also do that. Now the thing is. It turns out swearing hurts the nerve ending in a way that it blocks the pain center to send all the pain I feel within a body part. This is how I developed my pain tolerance. Causing pain in my brain so the sense of pain will not slow me down. It was like a morningstar or a cactus like object in my mind. Currently I have to figure out how my feelings move my ultrafast energies because we know the trope when psychics get mad and shit happen from anime already. It's real and it just leads to more madness. Instincts feelings thoughts reasons. Also I have to agree that "reasoning" turned into intellectual self masturbation in the last centuries that lead no where. And yeah this "help" the church did by prolonging the suffering of others for "faith points" was not a solution. I can only relate to you as I was in the wilderness as a child as "training" but I never had to survive the city hellscapes. Truth is I'm not exactly asking about the ripper life of you but about the thing when you said "you needed these kind of conditions to be able to manifest". Why do you need things to be "this bad". Is this your ripper personality only or other parts of your journey has this condition also.