>>5082
>Finally I solved it
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Nvm
Now I am aware of more impurities and malfunctions. Long night ahead

>>5070
>>the love thing is whatever for me at this point
Wanted to mention this before because there is a perspective here. The path of love. I read somewhere that the path can be taken via love or power. Love is safe. Reality is kept together via love as they say and many other nuances. The path of power is not safe. That will just make you go overboard and has a high chance of abuse exploitation if you misuse your power. You might think we walk that path but I did not start with that. My path was the path of understanding knowledge and insight. But pic related.
When I have seen that quote the first time I was thinking and concluded that the answer is just
Just start having insights into matters of power lol
Then no one will be able to stop you from having more insights.Power is intoxicating at first tho. But as always I have to go almost way too overboard with power to realize this not why I gained power. Easy to get drunk on it.
Love is different and the more I understand the mechanisms the less capable I am to word it. And ofc mainstream "love" is just lust and hedonism nowadays.
Like I got a vision of sunny flowery field with a version of me with babyskin strong body and a neat hair that was downright feminine and he was doing stuff that I could describe as "gay". BECAUSE THANKS TO RETARDED FAGGOTS I AM ASSOCIATING BEAUTY WITH FAGGOTRY AND BECAUSE OF THAT I WAS UNABLE TO ACCEPT IT BY DEFAULT. HE WAS MY CREATIVE ENERGIES WITH THE ELEMENT BEAUTY VIA FORM MASTERY. MFers appropriating the rainbow as their sign still angers me. If I see rainbow flags I know which kind of people are holding it and forget what was the rainbow originally
So yeah don't get confused sexually because love will take many forms. It appeared to me different ways many times and I don't know how it will look for you.