>>5196
>Also something I wanted to mention. Your "free will level" is increasing so your sisters will harass you far less because you are less of a dumbfuck and they have a level of respect towards you because you are "returning". So you will have to ask them and connect to them on your own and get a hang of asking for guidance when it is needed.
as much as i do bemoan it at times i kind of want them to keep harassing me haha... O_O

>I am not saying you cannot ask or post on this board but understand how your sisters are "always with you" and sometimes you are the one that needs to start initiating the conversation. Even if you are alone you are not alone and even if you are with other people you are still with your sisters and they understand you well but there are things they still don't understand about the "current you".
No worries, i understood what you meant. I'll start taking the initiative when attempting to talk with them. I've been slowly doing it somewhat but still had that problem where i couldnt tell if it was them or if i was hallucinating/echoing what i wanted them to say

>Remember when I was talking about the illusory nature of self and how you have a bunch of subconscious tulpas within you representing or remembering every person/archetype you met in a way or in an another?
>To expand on that concept there is a thing about "role models". Our soul or spirit sorta remembers all of our past lives and there are "themes" and personality traits that always come out but only in similarly stimulating situations. And if there are no situations that "bring out our best" then something else will mimick it but it will be so shit it does not kickstart our soulgrowth.
>So what I am trying to say here is that you had not enough positive role models (Especially males) within your life and because of that you were unable to "resonate" some parts of your being.
i see... well, they aren't too completely against me being around males, there are a few i interact with on and off 4chan are who alright (that they approve of, even the porn obsessed ones who aren't fucking furries) its just as they said before that the vast majority are basically shit. they still have the stance i should be around women and stuff (i'm assuming part of it is for the obvious reasons) and the other half is due to said resonance, past lives, me becoming her, getting taken, etc. also the husband/miko stuff has gotten much... stronger too