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>You are walking the "path of love" so you have to understand all aspects of love and realize how it connects everything why you crave and fear love and what is "real love" and why you really love your sisters and how you truly I said TRULY want to stay and leave with them. Now you are not just a weapon turned into companion soul but via the long journey you had you acquired free will and self aware feelings towards the world and the current mundane feelings you have are and are not you also. The illusory nature of the self. What feelings belong to (You) what feelings are just from your libido and what are the things that you TRULY LOVE. You will have to explain this to all aspects of your inner being and
i think... i'm getting somewhat better at telling which feelings originate from where Also my libido has never been THAT strong, its always just in short, but concentrated bursts like for example, if i got aroused as a teen i would probably look at alot of smut/watch porn a few days out of the week like once a month(?) and outside i would just consider it an annoyance because it interrupts gaming time or some such. thats not to say that i dont occasionally glance or think of things outside of that designated horny period

>So as I said in the (good ol) past women bonded better and they were first girls then women once they bonded with a mate. Today sadly (as BO mentioned before) women are in a shitty "in-between" stage where they are stuck as being whores. This is why incarnating as a woman would ruin your chances further in this timeframe of existence. Whores are not companions. They are a mere sort of entertainment for hire. They are as valuable as the money they cost and nothing more. And in todays culture the more "strong and independent" a woman says she is the less is her actual value. Strong and independent people don't scream those words every day. They are just strong and independent. The more I go on the path the less sure I am what I would call "independent" tho. That term got jewed hard again.
yeah, i try not to worry about it too much now. it's still somewhat kinda ehhhh but i'll deal with it a while longer