Sunflower 02/20/2022 (Sun) 00:51:27 Id: 972fd5 No.885 del
>>882
I realized every energy that is not "mine" will return to "where it came from". Now I have to just let as much as it can "go back" and "stop corrupting" the "self"
I even asked Shiva when I truly realized how destructive the red spike can be
>should I really use this on my path
>accept this gift for now it will help the advancement of your path
>but what if it dooms me
>you will overcome it anyway
>you sure?
>what? you don't trust yourself?
it made me smile

But yeah I am trying to figure out the details. Like how i need to purify my body of the "food" that it has. (I either fast or purify the food before I eat it. Probably the latter for now. I fasted before but I cannot do something imbalancing as that for now) Also I am using a spell I got from a vampire that uses the energy to feed the muscles... I should also get rid that I guess. Muscles are for the great work anyway. Muscles not used for work should not be used. It just makes you want to misuse it. This understanding of mine really helped to control the red spike. It's muscles. The most potent one. You need to let it grow into your body your hands but don't let it reach your head. You become the peak testosterone filled muscle head who has nothing to break in front of him so he breaks anything he finds. The best way to increase the red spike? Find a vampire and push your hands against theirs. This way your "metaphysical muscles" has a "reason to grow" When you overpower that vampire you find a stronger one. But you have to watch out with this. If you have meager white spike you get doomed by it. I wanted to beat up the buddhas when I went back to Arhat with the constantly raising red spike

Ambrosia tho...
I think now I have an idea what that is. I had a way to access it before. But now I think this will be a new one

>>883

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