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Exactly the key is the white spike. The "self". You don't need the red spike after you regain it. But what is the true self? As I started to lose my "attachments" and "energy blockages" I felt empty. I thought I lost parts of my soul. Which was true in a way. When you lose your attachments you will feel "empty". I had to figure out why. Because your spirit or "self" is in those. And that is a problem. WHy? because if your spirit is in that and you are not regaining your "self" you magnetically pull back the whole attachments with your "longing". So what you need to do? "Kill" karma and as you do that you need immediately take in the "essence" the "self" which is yours. And with that you feel you have a purpose no matter what you do. This is the great difference between nihilism and fulfillment. Also I figured out love and the whole lot of mechanics but writing that down is a TLDR CHARACTER LIMIT REACHED WRITE A BOOK FAGET. (if u want I write it down but it's really a wall of text)
Now I know RHP is possible but is a hella lot of work and in the end? it doesn't matter or it does. The funny thing when you ask Brahma Vishnu and Shiva about the meaning of life they give different answers.