>>53680
In my experience, when someone says something like "and a dozen other things", they're not THAT unbothered or in control. But I'll take your word for it because you're always intellectually honest

>The day I took the cattos in many years ago I knew this would be a scenario playing out eventually. It was worth it for me and for the cattos, its alright however it plays out.
That's good. Cold simple logic. My autistic ass likes that. It's just that, like you've always said, it's the other side of the mind that needs to learn certain lessons. But even if it's only any good for the conscious side, that sort of talk does help

>>53681
option 1 is not possible anymore. the other two sound horrible. and how can removing the brakes be the less risky option? maybe I'm just overthinking and things would work out if I did precisely that. but I can't help but think I'd end up realizing my murder fantasies and making things way worse. Suzanne had a similar conversation with a guy in one of her Q&A streams, and he had the same worry, I know it's actually very common for people to have that fear that if you let go you'll just kill everyone. If I remember correctly, Suzanne said something about his mind/ego being afraid, planting those ideas in order to defend itself against its deconstruction