>>53881
I know that all the lights are out in my brain but I don't want to do any of the things that it would take to get it back in working order. I'm so convinced that everyone is stupid and insane and wrong except me that I'd rather take the L and die than try to fit in. I should've probably just continued assaulting people like in school. That was the real me I should've never stopped hurting the enemy (because that's absolutely what people are) and I should've been killed for it. That would've been an honest way to live my life not whatever this bizarre nightmarish web of lies is