>>110060
No, I was just going along with(I assume Delle?)>>110049 here.
>>110039
If you want a real answer, yeah. I kind of did love Puka. Not in the way everyone seems to think, but more like, I saw a LOT of my younger self in her. So much so I was tempted to ask her if she ever felt/acted on the impulse to start fires or other fucked up and/or illegal things I did at her age but figured it would come off as weird or groomerish. "Hey, I can sense you're probably a really ugly person deep down, tell me about your secret deviancies and criminal behavior."
I wanted to keep her safe, I saw that it wasn't too late for her(probably very wrong in hindsight) to have a somewhat decent life that didn't end up leaving her as ugly as I became. If she got groomed once and was still going on sites like 4chan it's obvious she didn't exactly have any real guidence or sheltering in her life, something I'm fairly familiar with myself.
There is a very real human of me that does care and wants the world to be a better place, but that's not really something I care to show to most people for obvious reasons.

If anything, I guess I wanted to pseudo save myself by proxy though her if that makes sense. Like In some weird way, if I ended up helping to push her in the right direction and she didn't end up ruining her own life with her own stupid arrogant and ultimately self destructive behavior fueled by unchecked mental illness and encouragement from very toxic and harmful people from the internet.

But hey, that ultimately proved to be a really dumb idea and I probably did more harm than good. And sure, it was very self motivated in some weird way.¯\_(ツ)_/¯