>>174675
i like to fantasize abt cnc and free use so idk if thats a rape fantasy. only a FANTASY though. i wouldnt know about irl. id probably shit myself if someone tried touching me out of the blue cuz i get scared when someone touches me without warning

guys cmon lets talk im drunk and on canax if u want i can stream or do makeup and give y guys a show hehehe i wanna do bad things tonight i want to regret eberything i want to spiral down again and get addicted to h and just die fr this time i legit cant do it i dont want a job my family is never honna pay for my commute and accomodation even if i gey 100% scholsrship in an european masters program theure actually so goy and all this because theyre fighting over who gets what in yhe divorce like im so tucking mad at everything why cant one thing go right all of you used to like me but now im fucking ugly because i tried to make my mental health better but it obviously didnt do anything so im just as depressed as evet and FAT now i just dont know what to do i want to relapse who wanna come to istanbul airbnb and double suicide on heroin Od please

u van see how depsperayr i am becausr i resprt back to posting pics like this i hate myself i know im a whore but its been the only way ive felt appreciatef and ive been missing it so mucj and im so drunk someone just talk to me i dont care if its mean or not because if ur mean youre probanly right im not a very good person but its not intentional i just domt know what im doing i just domt know what to do i hate being a "human" i put it in quptes befause im mot a real human im different i cant get alony with anyone i cant understand anyone nor can anyone understand me ill be alone forever oh hod