>>187729
>She knows anything she tells you will be dumped online during your next crashout (which is likely mere minutes away).
That never happened like she thinks it did or portrays it. I own those mistakes, and she doesn't have to trust me like that out of the gate. That's not what I'm asking for. Just the chance to show her I'm better now. Much better.
>And you tried to gaslight her into believing those were all her fault.
Untrue. I perhaps never owned my part in it hard enough. My part was much worse than hers. The reason we arent friends anymore is mostly on me, I own that. Her part doesnt matter anymore. I forgive her utterly. Entirely. It wasn't her fault, not really. The fault lies with how I reacted and dealt with instead of just giving her space to do her thing and heal or whatever she needed to do. I just made it harder for her like a retard.

I haven't crashed out in a long time. New record maybe. I feel really good.

Rest assured Channing, I would absolutely kill myself before I ever betrayed you again.