i saw this cute girl popping up in pictures on /b/. thought damn shes pretty. eventually started looking out for pictures of her because well theyre fun to look at.
two weeks later i have a 4gb file on my computer of pictures and videos of her. the blood, the scars, the scrunched cheeks, it all drew me further and further in. she seemed like the perfect person to save me from a lifetime of loneliness and maybe i could save her from her pain as well.
a month had passed since i first saw her picture. im now masturbating vigorously to my folder of her media at least five times daily. the folder is up to 9.7gb.
two months passed and i had become a shell of my former self. i had conversations with her even though she was not there and would go to restaurants alone and pretend i was looking across the table at her. i traveled 15 hours to delaware and drove around the entire state looking for her.
i visited every single target in delaware at least four times trying to find her. i took with me every dollar to my name in cash just hoping i could find her and give it to her. maybe it can get her drugs and provisions to survive a couple of weeks. just long enough to post a few more pictures and videos.
after two weeks of driving i had spent all of the money on gas and still hadnt found her. i hadnt tasted any of her blood or talked to her about her favorite anime. i hadn't even been able to give her money or provisions that i know she needs.
as i drove 15 hours back to my apartment i realized how much of a fucking loser i must be to do all of this for someone i dont know and a stupid teenager at that. but i still dont regret it.
if youre out there please let me send you money and provisions ciara. i know you need it all you have to do is ask.
im planning to drive back up there this spring i might not find you but i cant stop trying. you will one day have my provisions and money. and right now even though you may not know it you have my love.