>>36537
>That I still think she's a looker and a cool/fun person to do cool/fun shit with is proof in itself she's fucked.

That's the thing tho, she will literally never change or let alone get any retribution because she will literally ALWAYS have somebody to take her in despite how fucked up and sick she is and she'll oblige because for her it doesn't really matter if she realizes just how fucked she is in the head and how much pain she's inflicted others, cause she realizes this but is like meh whatever if I can't / ain't interested in changing then it's okay if I keep being this evil and insensitive fuckup since somebody will still take me anyway lol so why change at all".

You see how fucked up that is? She might be well aware of her own dynsfunctional self but in the end it doesn't matter.