>>41843
Nowhere in your post do you mention art. You're a good artist. You should try to get a job involving creativity, like volunteering with kids in an afterschool program where you can draw and do crafts with them, or maybe apply to a bakery, something like that. Wageslaving isn't the meaning or purpose of life but it will give you a reason to go out and take care of yourself, and you will even make friends and learn things in the process. I wish you luck. It is never over.