>>45069
This literally kills me. I just cannot picture her being the way she actually is if that makes any sense. It's as if my mind just refuses to attach her face and her voice and her personality and all of which made her so endearing to me contrasted with the image of her getting fucked by incels, pegging guys, sucking dick ("great throat game because she has no gag reflex" as her ex said) and being every single thing she didn't appear to be when I became so infatuated with her. Fuck this hurts so bad and it only does so because it's true.