>>79404
I think marky is a ship adrift at sea. this is her default state and where she feels comfortable. blown around by the winds, fighting to survive on the rough waters, suffering and not knowing what will come next and where she will find dry land. Roberto was a hell of an anchor for her but keeping her there for 3 years was like caging a wild animal. things probably grew worse and worse as he tried to 'tame" her until she snapped and completely destroyed the anchor tethering her to the solid ground that makes her so uncomfortable and ready to self implode.

Tldr: marky is a ship and an animal