Anonymous
12/15/2022 (Thu) 23:28
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>>3878How do you do, pal? No cold, well, I was physically cold. I forgot to turn on my space heater so my room was about 50 degrees, and even being under the blankets was freezing. It occurred to me when watching the video back that people will assume I'm on drugs due to the runny nose; I am not, as I have too few brain cells as it is and I need every last one functioning. As for Christmas, my day will be pretty quiet. I'm always a little sad on Christmas day because all of the build up, decorating, and excitement for that day is over. Christmas is still fun, but once it hits afternoon it feels like it's over. What's sadder is taking all the decorations down. I get most of my enjoyment, ironically, every day leading up to Christmas.
Fun fact as to one factor for me coming back: I had been considering "coming back" for a number of months, but I didn't film any videos at this point. I came up with the Chester character, this was going to be my first video back, and I had been wanting to buy baseball cards as a prop for Chester. I was at a thrift store and found a 1960's nativity set in the box for $3. I bought it and when I opened the box, there were 3 baseball cards in the box. That moment was like a sign from what you would consider a monotheistic god, and I knew I had to come back. Random baseball cards in a nativity set? It was too coincidental. Later I filmed my first video, a Chester video, including the baseball cards. It's an unreleased video and I'll refilm it since it was so bad and low quality, but there's some lore.
>>3884 When my eyes water, I don't know why. My eyes water when I get embarrassed for some reason, or when I'm joking around. The latter only ever happens when I record videos, I noticed a lot in my old videos I'd have glassy eyes. The last time my eyes watered from embarrassment I was helping a nice Asian man with his bottled water at the grocery store. I wasn't sure if I should help him or not, but it was too awkward not to, so I helped him, barely making eye contact and I felt my face turn red, eyes water. It's not a social anxiety issue, I don't have anxiety. You don't have to enjoy or be good at all social situations, it doesn't mean you have anxiety. An aside - sometimes we're too quick to deem small issues as mental problems. Some people collect their issues with pride like it's a trophy. "My anxiety, my depression, my autism". By pridefully toting around mental problems, you're limiting yourself from ever improving from these problems. If you're prideful or romanticizing your mental problems, you would lose part of your character if you cured yourself. Don't reward yourself for having a problem, reward yourself for trying to fix your problem.