I’ve been doing a lot of thinking last night and didn’t sleep. Thought about academics and careers and future employment. What’s the point of a job when I can coast on the dole? Is seeking university qualifications narcissistic? Would I just feel nothing after getting the qualification? Or perhaps it’s the celebration that I want, maybe even to get high marks and excel better than others to prove myself.
I thought that intrinsic reward should be what one seeks and money comes after. It’s all very obvious when I write it. But what about for people who don’t have an intrinsic reward pathway? Are they just shit out of luck? I think I need to go back and read some more individuation books.