I'm not enjoying a second of this existence. I'm really not. "You'd rather be a goy. God doesn't let the Jews have things". Not quite wrong, so fuck God. I only exist now to seek revenge on all those who've wronged me. Even for following God's law I've not received anything, a wife, kid, I've lost friends, and I don't even want any of those things I've lost. I just want to destroy.