>>47005
>>47007

Most people in your mental condition just cave and start drinking themselves to their slow but assured death. Not that I am recommending you do so but if there is no way out of your own misery complex you could at least make it a bit less painful before you inevitably die. Just don't drink yourself psycho and regret it.

>I feel sick when I eat even on these meds that are supposed to increase appetite, like it's an annoying knot in my stomach.

I would say it's time to switch that drug and try something else.