after overwhelming the thread with problems and observations of failure i would like move towards something useful finally.

>the certain goal and the uncertain goal.

i noticed that there are simple things i might decide upon doing that could not be easier and more straight forward to deal with.

)wash clothes in the washing machine
)clean windows
)carry glasswaste to the public container
)buy bananas and cucumbers

these are all easy tasks that involve no creativity, research, risks or leaps of faith. i would know exactly how to do them. if i wrote them down somewhere, and that jolt of electricity (the decision) would be made to do them, i would be able to start them instantly without hesitation; unless it was night. i know how to do it, i just have to do it, there is nothing for me to climb over.

other tasks are more complicated and i don't really know everything about how to complete the task. i know i want something but i don't know how to get it. those tasks i treat differently. i don't just write them down on a list, i have a special place for them where they have space to evolve into something that is more certain. this method is based on a belief i have:

>when i can see something i believe to be complicated just clearly enough, what to do next becomes obvious.