>>20527 >I think you have to reach age 30 without having sex to become a wizard, so I already failed. Sex is in the mind, even people that can't perform physically have constant imaginary sexual stories swirling in their mind. This is part of a humans' life of suffering, it continues until you become compost. And if you subscribe to any of the religious fairytales that have an afterlife, then in that mind the torture never ends. Your imaginary WiZarD story has many versions this is what a human does, they make it up as they go, but nothing human made is true.
Jordee can't understand any of this, he is repelled but also attracted to what he just cannot fathom. He aspires to and longs for a place he belongs, fellowship with his peers, but his head is so dented that he sabotages everything he touches, and the anger creates this need to tear down what he aspires to but can never understand, he is in a living hell. And his hell is so personal that no one else can help him, only he knows the way out.
