>>12302
break yourself. a good, easy way to do this: just go on a long walk. dont stop, and go as far as you can. while you walk, take in the world around you; question why things are the way they are, reflect on old experiences and memories you had in the places you walk by. if it helps, listen to your favorite music, even if it is a bonbicore playlist. eventually, you'll start to get tired, start breaking: but, because you're out, you can't break, and as your body gets tested so too does your will, your spirit.
eventually, of course, you'll make it home, and from that safety and comfort, you can collapse unabashed. From that broken, tired husk, a new, strong man will be born. repeat every day.