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>As for the Cabal as an entity, it's essentially a harem formation "owned" by the matriarch.
I don't quite understand but I have no memory of being added to the Cabal or the Cabal noticably giving a fuck about me. In the beginning I was expecting it, but eventually stopped caring myself about it.
My initial issue was not about connection to the Cabal or Ancients but about possible ergregores and connections purely between the imageboard anons who took the spell. As I do not wish anons stuff(energy, ideas, dreams, whatever) to seep over to me and influence me (stain me lol). I sometimes think that my dreams and my mind might be influenced by external forces which are not part of my pysche and which have nothing to do with my goal and my work. If I understand your post correctly then there is no such problem so it all should be fine. If we all become part of the Cabal and are connected that way, I guess it's okay. So it seems like you helped me with that and I am able to move on from that issue now.
>if you have it in your blood memory/DNA or can insert it there, it's because you should have it. Once accepted it's a part of you.
I understand you forced your way into this and you don't actually belong to this bloodline? As you are a self-manifested fay or something of that sorts. Does that make me a realer vampire than you, or is it all the same in the end? I myself don't know if I belong or not, I just took your spell. Ultimately, I like to believe in freedom and free will and individuality, so that nobody can tell me what I should or where I belong. But of course vampirism and the idea of the cabal and ancients were always alluring, inspiring and interesting to me. Maybe they will show themselves some day.