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>Imagine someone asking stupid things all the time, because they lack all kinds of basic information about the topic?
I fear nobody here would know better than you as you have been dealing with the same stuff for many years and many many threads now as far as I can tell.

Putting together manuals, exploring history and lore and trying to find clues to the cabal and other things... it all makes sense when you are actually trying to force your way in from outside and you don't really "belong" or whatever. But when someone, as you have said, should be here or belongs here, if this is your bloodline then it doesn't make sense why it should be so tedious and hard. In that case I think it would make more sense for the Cabal to just teleport to your house and take you to their castle where they add you and explain everything important. At least you made it back home by taking the spell and making it, this is already something great to have achieved by yourself. But maybe my way of thinking is just juvenile and spoiled. This would of course eliminate all the elements of the hunt and achieving progress and wisdom yourself, like getting in telepathic contact with them first. (As I understand it the Cabal are first and foremost a physical entity on earth so I would assume they would rely more on physical means of meeting and communication, altought they would probably be able to teleport and switch into at least the ethereal layer outside of the physical.) But then again Harry Potter would probably not achieve much if he was left with his idiot degenerate family and Hagrid didn't come to take him to Hogwarts.
In the end I think it would be most wise to assume you don't actually belong there and if anything you are just forcing your way in. In this way, you will not become lazy and not expect anything to happen or be done for you. Instead you always have to progress on your own with all you have got at this very moment, do the best you can do by yourself. This way you keep evolving and having real progress with your own real power and not stagnate. Now that I feel into this, I can clearly feel the difference between believing you belong here and you should be here and believing you don't belong anywhere and you have to achieve everything on your own. I can clearly see how the former can create an attachment and has the chance to make you lazy and create expectations, while the latter just fires you up to try the best you can do right now.