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This comes back to something I call "the 7% success rate" and Snail called "the universe of pouring out blood".
When you practice, you can learn to do things accurately and you think you know how to do it. In track and field sports this illusion of the perfect performance is maintained. It works great for training soldiers, everyone thinks they are the hero who will win the battle by throwing the spear perfectly, outrun bullets and get to safety and so on. In reality all this does is create a mentality of not giving up. Once you think you can succeed 100% of the time, you will not accept it if you failed, but think
>I am better than this, let's go again
and when the guy in front of you ran into the street and was shot, you think
>I am better than him
and you will run after him anyway. This is crowd control trickery, and unless you had contact with the army in a way beyond regular grunts, you may not be aware of it.

What I'm getting at here is that "getting in" is not done with 100% success rate, but with 7%. They created so many failvamps over the years, who could not become immortal and would just cause a mess in society and then die at 320 y/o or such. They would not know if someone was a success until 1000 year had passed, because the longest a failvamp had lived was around 800 years. Add that they may lose count of time so at around a 1000 they would start thinking this person will stay, and is worth teaching. We've been over this.
We've been let in based on the assessment of the higher ups only. Individuals, which makes us their pet project. Those further down in the heirarchy won't just accept us, they will wait 1000 years, then say the equivalent of
>ok you can start washing dishes
This is why you feel you were not accepted. No one of us really was, except for the matriarch saying so and the rest following because an order is an order.

I hope this clarifies the situation.