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>Only when you have internalized all your creations are you free. Free to use them, control them or recreate them from scratch anytime. By that time you have overcome materialism. You are carrying the external world inside yourself and have no attachment to it. This is the path to immortality
I had a profound experience today, but it seemed to be the opposite of what you mention. Although I am not sure, maybe my limited view doesn't let me see the broad picture. After contemplating what I truly wanted for a while, I sensed a deep urge to "let go of everything" or something like that.
My needs and wants that had formed over time appeared in front of me one after another and dismantled, disconnected from myself, even myself or the idea of myself. Eventually the realisation or fear hit me that if I truly wanted to let go of everything, everything would be over. It would be like a final judgement so to speak. I canceled this process and settled for the mindset to experience life, but also pursue spiritual development and become free. So I did a full circle, but I feel a little bit lighter now. This was more of a psychological process as it seems. Despite "disconnecting" from most of these wishes and dreams, I haven't really lost them, it's more like they aren't annoying anymore. We will see. Maybe this was a form of internalization, overcoming of these mental and emotional constructs. At least I felt free mentally for a little bit of time.