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>Suddenly a song that I've heard on the radio for years will just "cick" with me. Or a band I never was I find one song I like and gain an appreciation or others that I didn't regard.
my favorite albums didn´t click on me at first listen and when something clicks on too fast, it gets tiring fast as well. The most memorable songs or albums are those that were there for you but you didn´t bother to check it out until someday you get to appreciate it in a different way. All of this without forcing too much. So it has happened to me with Spiritualized. Not the one I expected but finding them out again refreshes me in terms of ideas and inspiration. What I needed during this period, different sources to pay homage or tribute somehow. I didn´t have any plans for this celebration save trolling a bit.
>I tend to think of a loss of innocence usually as one event or something that is described as slowly eroding over time,so this is a interesting phrasing.
the year that marked me a lot in terms of political stuff was 2016. I saw how the elites treat people like puppets. I knew the world doesn´t gravitate around me, but like the songs or albums, those hopeless emotions click and enter into the body without controlling your mind. It´s the closest event to have driven myself insane without any childish reason. I had lost hope seeing how people were rioting something fake in the US, I saw how they want cheap money by making the West population their prostitute for their interests, that we are nothing but little ants who are about to become or be replaced by robots, people protesting for SJW and not for actual matters (faking riots and getting paid like 45$ per hour from the elites)
My illusion exploded and I didn´t know where to go, seeing things too dark for me or that somebody would go after me for noticing the "red pill". Whenever you realize those lies, you cannot go back to the bubble or refuge. It was a hard step to admit despite knowing that before. It was the impact right at the sensible target and suffered the psychological consequences. I reached a point where the only reason to move forward was seeing the world burn along with my dreams lost. It seems that I am describing an edgy phase but those thoughts didn´t come for becoming edgy but facing another slap from the harsh reality.
>I've always considered to be mine is the rise of race politics and the massive mistrust of most people that I acquired during events in my teenage year's.I was just found how you worded that to be different to what I'm used to hearing

similar for me except that I don´t believe in races. The color of the skin while having some physical properties, doesn´t mean you are prevented to be better than anyone else. I personally think (not falling into conspirators nor elites sides) that one person grows as an individual depending on their education, ambient, family, actions, traditions, culture and personal circumstances,etc. The aria race just feels like an underage position and I thought that as well during that day.
However, I believe that it´s not the race the problem but culture.I can interact perfectly with Latin, Americans, Europeans even I have a Chinese family as neighbors and they don´t annoy at all because they are doing their own business without harming others. Take a wild guess who collide...if I have not had problems with those who have the same values and try to learn from ourselves,then others have the problem and could fail miserably, even more if they try to hard to integrate them by force.
I had that mistrust from the start and I still do but to a lesser extent.I had fear of people in general, getting too close to them and watching them right into their eyes. Not a coward but I felt uneasy a lot of times. As time went on,I have gained more confidence and trust whenever I know how those people act. At first, mistrust, then ask and analyze how they act and then, allow that trust for X things.Instead of having it all the time, I act cautiously.With that confidence,I no longer fear unknown people unless they want me hurt.