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>SJWs absorbed the pubic consciousness too much. Many of them fighting them don't understand that they aren't the ones who will take power, but merely be used to justify things for those who do. The big bussiness, the establishment who are all to varying degrees in bed with each other are influenced by them, but they have a differet endgame. Not to sound overly conspiracy.
basically, you have described it. It was the fact that I discovered how that dynamic worked and I felt overwhelmed by it. It could (in retrospective) represent all the political arrows that were shot at me during our formation of politics during that year and a half and that final arrow after the elections hit me like no other, putting all my questions in a big personal challenge and wonder where I should go.

Everywhere I looked, I saw that the West was getting fucked and that if those people (elites) wanted to get rid of me, they would with no mercy. I was thinking like I had all my chances to live and hope for a better future gone unless you took the far right path and make a cleaning of people who hated the survival. The propaganda made by the general media is astounding and Goebbels would be absolutely proud of that achievement by using very mindless puppets.

>I had entertained things kinda like this for years so I never had one slap in the face moment.
you were fortunate. When you realize about certain topics little by little, you barely get surprised and your body accepts it more naturally. Just that this one impacted me and actually entered through the neurons. I am usually a wall when it comes to new thoughts but when something subtly enters into it, it has an actual on me. It could have been any other lie but it happened with that one despite looking at it right now with no surprise with my face. I have learned how elites act without knowing them, not that I am an expert these days, but I have acquired a mind that could form from the ashes a very corrupted movement if I wanted to. Does it sound familiar? one of my fics maybe?

And no, despite those subtle lessons, I would have liked to keep my innocence a little bit more or at least, face this challenge little by little like you. I didn´t see anything other than blinding myself into a rabbithole of thoughts. Despite my parents trying to support me and even requesting me to go back to a psychologist as a solution because of my own drama I had formed during that time, I said no. Not even money could have saved me from that situation (in fact, I would have even less reasons to find motifs and get out there). I ended it when my parents told me to end it because of my own health and for them, just to avoid any worry because of me. I tried to pass it but I didn´t see any solution of my benefit during that time. I couldn´t give up my thoughts for the world.

The resolution was avoiding any visit of /pol/ or that subreddit,going to university like nothing happened (and I did because of automatized routine) and simply not caring anymore. Just saying: "Fuck it, do whatever you want with the world, I am not going to defend it". That was the first motif I found to move on. Annoy anyone with my existence and eat popcorn silently, simply staring.