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>I'm not underestimating myself, I specifically don't want to make a mark.
yet you will make one. Not because I say so but because accidentally, you will have made it without noticing at all

>You know the gondola thingy? To always observe, never experience? Yeah, that's my kind of thing, I really would wish I could be 100% like that
how to disappear completely the post. I like being an spectator too and not being pointed out in the society. However, that´s impossible,not being pointed is one thing but another is basically watching. The fact that you are watching, changes the course and so, you are participating in this universe.

>It always feels like we're minutes till midnight when it comes to hitting the bottom

that´s the modern life I guess. It never feels like the downward spiral ends and we always end up choking ourselves in random thoughts that costs us our sanity, in a deep grey area where we find a fake comfort.
However, whenever you have reached the bottom, you will feel awful but at the same time, it relieves and brings you hope that you will no longer feel worse than that.

>It's crazy how this online disinhibition thingy is real and gets the best/worst I'm not the one to judge out of me. Who knew only on random anonymous pony imageboards can I drop the mask and speak honestly.
Or is it just another "making yourself" creation of my mind? I can't tell, I'm not able to tell, it's all (meta-)*meta, which is nice, but sometimes can be tiring.

You create a certain character by being so meta with your personalities: both with the mask and without it.
And no, no one has to be nice because of being nice. One thing is having ethics and manners that innocents shouldn´t pay for your problems; and the other one is being honest to youself for what you are (including being an actual motherfucker or extreme person).