>think I get that. Does remind a bit of when I was a little younger. I was especially draw ta things related to betrayal.relating to IRL events I know many just laugh such things off as trying to be edgy and dark, but there can be real value to such themes. There are real value to dark themes. The problem is how is to mess it up completely combining with desperate death, cutting veins and everything is awful situations,etc. Ruined by immaturity and a lack of artistic view on it.
>Then again, perhaps I was a bit of a dark and edgy person, so my perspective maybe a bit skewed. Though for me personally I never really enjoyed dark things fully, it was more a product of my frustrated mind that couldnt fully articulate what I really wanted to express, but overall i think I get the feel.
Are you me? The darkest things I get are when I am frustrated or get a little bit existential because of irl situations. I like darkness when it comes in topics, themes, ambient and even harsh morals. I don't like it when it gets creepy or edgy, just touching and diving into its passages and see what it can offer. It's not something you choose but I prefer getting used to it because I will get happier when good stuff arrives in my life and indifferent or stronger psychologically when I enter into difficult times. I like the light and by nature, I get pretty optimistic at times very easily. But when it doesn't come naturally, it drains me a lot of energy. It feels forced.
So basically,darkness to me is not a medium to get desperate and say fuck it. It feels to me as a way to express the topics of your brain and putting a balance. I myself like to be in comfort with the darkness, setting the bar low and then,I'll be prepared enjoy the few things that may come.
>For me, I sometimes like to look up random low tier fanfics just for the laughs. It is actually what helped me discover pony. Though I rarely invest much time on any fics good or bad, especially seeing them through to the end.
Basically, what patricians(and normal people) do. It's the most healthy mindset for them.
