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>Yeah,I know. It's just that I want to reach a certain number(not really hard) and then,I can certainly breathe with more freedom.

Don't make it: 'once I reach this point then I can have fun!'. I am speaking from experience here. It just becomes an arbitrary goal ya force on yourself that becomes a stress. I have done this a few times in the past, most noteably when I decided to wirt a cridgy bionicle as a way to improve my wirting skills. I would not rest or do anything else in my free time other then worry about reaching 100 pages. I lost the motivation and it just became a chore. When I decided just ta mess around with it and see where it went is when I started to have fun. Not saying you shouldn't have a goal of post number to reach, just don't let it be a bummer to chilling and messing around here.

>The problem is that I think I am wasting my time when playing video games or literally doing nothing by lurking just doesn't do much either. It's like I feel like I am contributing to something that is pretty minor or has no importance in the end but feels kind of rewarding.

I get this 100%. I let several of my interest die/almost die not because I didn't enjoy them but because I didn't feel like it would be import/ I'd ever know anyone to share it with. Even if I had a fair bit of motivation and it wasn't that hard to continue in spite of my chaotic life at times. My only suggestion would be to just see how the wind blows with these ideas. Be chill and let things flow. Only do what you feel like and don't worry about completing anything.

>About the board, I simply don't know. I am just surprised that I have given so many ideas to be posted and even liked(bat ponies,seapones,Cadence,Dolores theories...). I know we are few here but I always come with a pretty low mindset when you come to a chan and not expect anything to come back to you....save pony content.

Perhaps its a similar reason to what drew ya here in the first place: "I can do whatever I want without worry of others reactions". I actually have a proto green thing I've tinkered around with and may post here if I get the time, certainly never thought I'd be doing this here. Why don't ya just experiment around and see where it goes?

>By being alive with a good health and not doing stange things that could hurt my life(drugs,fighting in the street because of mindless/childish stuff...)

I maybe able to relate a bit to that, though I don't know to what degree. I spent most of my life in a area of town that was considered kind of rough. How rough is depending on you ask; some people couldn't believe I was from there while I personally never thought it as the worst part of town, but that easily could be because of it being my normal and it certainly had settled down a good bit by the time of my late teenage years. I saw drugs, gangs violence and a few murders and all that jazz, it never hit too close to home... mostly. Not to pry info or anything, or trying to say "yeah I know that city rough life" because I am certainly more of a softy mostly