>>51607
>No I remember that. But if you did eventually find a way around that problem and I still haven't why do you think that is?
As I said it took me 30 years or so to figure it out.
Who is to say you are not close to finding what can help you or have already made progress. At least it seems like you are concerned with it which means, it's something that will continue working in the back of your mind. As long as that is running as a background process you should be able to find it and overcome it sooner or later.
What helped me was to realize that I believed certain things should be a certain way, and as soon as I removed these belief systems everything became easier. If you don't do this then you live in resistance to life and life is hard