I've been second guessing and doubting myself and my judgment my whole life. I've always put society's consensus before my own thoughts. And look where that got me... complete and absolute misery. Total defeat. I may as well be a stereotypical homeless junkie with rotting teeth. I should be making my own choices for real, clearly it can't be the worse approach of the two. I may not kill anybody (though I almost hope I get a chance to get that out of my system some day) but I swear I'll start setting more boundaries and being SO MUCH MORE HONEST