It's actually kind of an experience to look back and realize how much of the shit you've had thrown at you was because those people were jealous of one thing or another. I always fully internalized their disdain not realizing they WANTED me to believe I was inferior in some way because they needed that. Growing up I was cute, had perfect grades, relatively wealthy parents, I was good at both chess and tae-kwon-do. The other kids weren't having it I guess