I don't hate life btw. Well not always. It's just that you need to be pretty stupid not to think about how you'll be putting your kids through a lot of pain and suffering. Sure even if everyone considered that some people would still go ahead with it because they think they can handle the responsibility and give those kids the right tools but it should be a small minority, not the majority of people. Then again maybe "allistics" don't experience hardships the way I do, so it's not as big of a deal for them. I see them freaking out and crying and such all the time, but somehow it feels like they can't possibly be feeling the same degree of emotional pain I've felt. Maybe it's just a lack of empathy on my end