>a deep sense of identity and a longing for authencity
if she had mentioned integrity too I would've probably had an orgasm

>believing others possess something you lack
they have this thing where the mere continuation of their existence is enough to keep them content and they just brush off anything negative it's like their brains reboot every couple hours at most. meanwhile I've been suffering from the same exponential memory leak for the last 17 years. I can only ever see the whole play I don't experience life one scene at a time. All my problems and flaws and limitations remain present in my mind all the time, I can only forget about them when I'm alone and distracted by hobbies. There are very few occasions where I can really feel comfortable and "normal" around other people. There's no "connection" there that can be "embraced"