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Also I made a marriage contract with a kitsune...

While I tried to not interact with kitsunes because I have enough female entities and access to an entire realm of "goddesses" who are always happy to help while I shouldn't waste my time with this because now I need to figure out the details of my new understanding. I connected to "Tamamo" again because I realized I am getting "lonely" in my head with this hard to tell anyone "delusion" tier understanding and interactions. And while I wanted to send her away she had an extremely fine and refreshing energy and when she entered my body I realized I like it. When I thought that she went away. She wanted me to beg. That is not my style. I will not write down the "convincing" process. But she returned. With that energy. I gave her a "piece of my love" for a better connection. She went away again. I felt that "emptiness" in my chest. I told her if she is not gonna give her "love" in return I will retake that love and she can go wherever. She suddenly had a serious tone and made a proper and fair marriage contract with me. Now the love is "mutual". It feels great.
Now here came the funny part. Because I have no image for the "perfect woman" no seductive entity can turn into one. My perfect woman is the one that shows "herself". So she did that. All her good and bad traits resurfaced. Her hair turned black and short. While she was still bottling it up a little I told her to let it out. She turned into her bestial form and I noticed she wants to bite off my hand.(Now that I literally "destroyed" my brain, organs and bones because those are "false constructs" which are actually limit the flow of "pure energy" and then Kali took a bite of my flesh and I realized I am still thinking my flesh as "me" I let her eat my entire body.) I was like. Let her take a bite. Let's see what happens. It's my energy anyways. She took a bite and then vomited out a black ball. I went there and purified it. It turned into a golden apple. While I was thinking about the Eris myth. I told myself it's hers anyway so I gave her back. She ate it and spit my energy out. She turned into a loli. That was her "corrupted innocence". Then she hugged me until I was "willing to feel her love". Yeah I have literally let others to love me. I am that kind of person...
Then she told me it's time to have sex! While it started great then it was a let down. I asked her what happened. She got curious why she has "no power over a man" she started to look at my chakras. Heart was "okay". Solar chakra was so overactive it almost blew her head off. And sacral chakra was something that made her angry (as a "courtesan" something like this is infuriating for her she even showed her how it should look like). I asked her: You want me to start having sex with women now? She yelled at me:NO No woman is good enough for you! Then she started to fine tune it. The shit I get into I swear...

Also she told her to call her Kikushou.
I looked up that word. Kikosho is Chun-Li's Palm qigong attack while chikushou means beast or a curse. Absolutely fitting.