>>1082
Went to sleep after this post and the got a lot of short dreams, every single one had an intrusion by the thoughtform or Lucifuge, guess I finally found something that works.

>>1087
>Seriously tho. You need to get rid of every weakness of yours to do that.
Oh boy, this is gonna take many years for me (Its been 2 years already).

>Also I talked to your >Lucifuge Rofocale or to whoever answered when asking for him. He told me I can command him to stop that but that would sabotage your enlightenment process.
Fugg, at least now I know that this isn't just punishment.
>And that is something I don't want to do. We even discussed maybe bullying you harder would be better for your progress but because I don't know your circumstances that could be lethal for you.
I guess this is when the he stopped showing up in the dreams tonight, if sitting on the throne was something that I couldn't possibly do then I planned to ask for your help tbh. I'm thankful that you didn't chose to bully me harder(I got close to an heroing when it all started). Sometimes I feel like giving up on magic too since I feel like I can't do propper meditation and visualizations with this guy here bothering me. I planned on fixing myself up with the remote, but with my thought control and this guy here I don't think its gonna go well so I didn't install it.

>And summon Michael if you want help with bad "demons". There is a Michael sigil somewhere I think. He is a bro.
I tried a working with Michael recently, but I guess I failed to evoke him propperly. I have a feeling that he sees the situation as ok since I'm not being harmed and it is for my development. I did manage to get him here a couple of times before, the first time he removed those 3 triangles implants on the heart, and the second he pointed his flaming sword towards me and I felt something good in my chest.