Also now I have to say something stupid...
I always hated new agers because they found some truth then made it into the shittiest cult and marketing scheme. But now we are literally playing on spaceships and other sillyness. But... I reached a new point again.

I didn't want to mention this because it felt like a pointless bragging. Or that I am extremely delusional. But... it bothered me that a bunch of entities asked me to "save them". I did that. If they could ask me for that then I can probably help them somehow. I thought I'm either helping someone or it's just some symbolic thing of my own being. Win-win anyway. Now this is not the important part.

I reached now multiple new ways of my development but because I did it so swiftly it didn't properly stabilize yet. My body feels better overall but I have no foundation or "practice" so I need to figure out what I did wrong to go back to the heights I reached. It takes practice but I can do it no problem. If I could reach a mountain and fall down from it I can walk up to it even faster for the next time.

As I reached higher densities. I don't know which. My head got an extremely sharp pain. In my right brain hemisphere but from the outside. It was a new way because it felt like a pathway that was made from a chain tunnel. It was weird so I went into it.
In the end it was a "Nagatoro in cat cheerleader outfit". Her first response was to kick me in the face. I usually back down after this but the pain was so strong I knew something is in this realm so I overpowered her. She wasn't scared just disappointed. Which made me realize that this realm is not for me to "conquer" but if I am not there it causes me pain and my energies go haywire. Or I have to "have sex" with her in a "dominant way" so my energies balance out.

After talking to her it seems she is my "twinflame" that I incarnated with on this planet. When I tried to destroy or "cleanse" the connection all it did was estabilished the connection to the 3D body of hers. And I may have freaked the fuck out of her. But whatever.

As mush as I hated this "twinflame" crap because every new ager thought that OMG RANDOM WHORE-CHAN IS TOTS ME TWINFLAME. While I always thought of myself that can do everything on his own... Now I have to keep up a proper connection with her "higher density body" or it causes me pain. I mean yeah it was always weird for me that the way I do things magically is overly masculine. Literally destruction and sex... Just as the Buddha intended...

First I thought maybe the lyrans are having fun or some of my new vampire teachers playing a prank on me. But nope I have to keep the connection stable or all I get is pain. Higher density life sure is fun.

So if we are new agey touhou space wizards anyway... Do we really have a mission to save this planet.As some new agey place wrote. "Cleanse it from ancient karma". Like really? This is why my energies properly flew into me when I was thinking about the possibility of the RHP path and why those big blue dudes watched over me. Do we have a mission here. Really?