Speaking of karma, even if I managed to purge it and create a crystal in my dantian which keeps it at a distance, there is still some really thick black qi stored in my body which I need to remove. Most of the "hard" parts which manifested in my muscles are solved after a long time of physical training and targeted foamrolling during the past 3 years. But seeing the thickness of what I managed to loosen up today made me reconsider how much of this is only from this lifetime. I'm well aware of being the opposite of my original nature in many aspects right now, this life being the odd end where I have to conclude the things I didn't understand before. But it seems while I finished everything and left in my past lives, even walking straight into the astral in some, the process still had unsolved leftovers as a result of how the environment functioned back then.

I just wasn't aware of how black and thick this thing could possibly be until I managed to break up the last bit in my shoulders and it started moving again. The energy was just completely black and thick like a mudslide moving down the middle channel of the body in waves. I've never seen anything like it before.

Just staying in the human world is possibly filling your body with this stuff passively, even the parts you are not actively using which aren't relevant for your current life. A lot of the scenes of the past are coming back and even being very intrusive at times, in the form of ideas, concepts and ways of thinking. This will clash with modern ways of thinking and understanding, which are possibly created by karma themselves. For a long time I was afraid of the dark, and would even feel a sense of horror when alone at home. I would not go to the second floor of the house in mid day because of this even, the sunlight seemed to make the horror worse. Now I know it was the past me all along, I was afraid of the parts of myself I didn't understand from within the modern thinking. Things today are so censored, nothing is connected to physical reality, we live in the most horrible times, but the violence is all hidden away to leave a neat surface of modernity.